Sunday, May 14, 2006

Happy Mother's Day






Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. I decided late last week to try to be crafty (the art's and crafty one not sly crafty) anyway, this year for the special women in my life. So I made them a small scrapbook of Carolyn's first year since all of them don't live anywhere near us. I included her first picture to her first birthday and listed her milestones like walking, crawling, talking, etc. Of course they loved it and since they are far away it will be like a little brag book for them. But regardless I know it's hard to be away from family so this hopefully will help. I got the perfect gift today...a drawing from my daughter. I LOVE IT!!! It's on the frig of course. So much has changed in my life over the last year and it makes it even harder now to be far from family. Sometimes like Pastor mentioned this morning I'd love to be adopted up here to feel like family was a bit closer but then I'm a little old for this I think. There are also other moms in the church that I wish I was closer too but I feel like I'm starting to get closer to some....still there are those tough nuts to crack as I call some people who are more shy about opening up. I love people though that's why I got into journalism. I love to hear about other people's life stories and learn from them. I feel more enriched by hearing such stories. Like this morning's about Joni and Jonathan. I look at those two as tough nuts (and maybe that's being too bold to say on a blog but I'm posting this regardless) but nevertheless I still think about those two and do care for them. From what I heard this morning, their story seems more similar to Evan and I than I imagined. As a mother I wonder who God has already chosen for my baby girl. Will she enter his life during rough times and help or will he be her safety net? She's so outgoing like her mom (well like I feel I use to be at least) that she'll probably attract someone like her daddy who is more quiet and withdrawn but is intense and loyal once you peel those onion layers off like donkey said about Shrek. LOL. I see my fellow congregation members nearly every week and they are my family up here and while I say hello I don't know what goes on from Sunday to Sunday. NOt to say that I need to know about everyone's life sometimes I can hardly keep up with my own. But I hope that these individuals those named and unnamed know that Evan and I are here for them. We don't open up much to people, I mean really open up not just state facts like I'm doing this or that. I haven't opened up emotionally to other people in a long time but sometimes I wonder if it's time. I'm just not the type of woman who likes the phone, I like face to face interaction so opening up to family via the phone is still hard to do. I protect myself by telling a few details to people and it gets things off my chest but no one really knows it all but Evan. Safe huh. Well anyway, I try each day to be a good mom to the baby that God entrusted me with and while I hope to enrich her life she already has enriched my life journey and that makes living all the more enjoyable! Thanks my beautiful baby girl...your mama loves you fiercely!

5 comments:

AmyJo said...

You know that you can talk to me about your life, Jessica. I hope you know that anyway. Also, the cake is cute.

Andy said...

Jess - It's been so nice to get to know you better. You are a great person. We must have more girly movie nights though!!!!! Those are fun! Love ya.

Andy said...

I also just wanted to let you know that I know it can take a long time to open up to people, letting them see the real inside. I know it's hard for me. I hope that we will be able to get to that point. I enjoy spending time with you and would love for the four of us to get together too! Have a great day!

Susie said...

It sounds like you too are a tough nut, so you should fit right in! :) I am sad that I don't get to see you like I did, but I know that God is working in your heart and you will find your place. Keep allowing Him to use you and it will be good. I also think the brag book was an awesome idea!

Julie said...

I feel privledged how well we know each other. You are a beautiful soul and being with you is a joy. I too am sad you had to move away. I remember all the nights we cried before you left...the moving day...the little town with the scrapbook store...love each other right from the start...connecting in a way I've only done with a few people my whole life...feeling bad when i'm sick and I don't write...and knowing that no mater what you will always be a....best friend
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