Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Too early for a realization this big
Wow, so it's early, far earlier than a 9 month pregnant woman should be up when her two year old is still sleeping. I know I should be relishing these moments on a pillow laying down but I got a weird bug this morning to do some internet searching-undistrubed. So Evan and I will be celebrating 5 years of marriage in a eight weeks (WOW!) and I thought let's see what the internet holds in terms of my name both married and maiden. It use to be lots of articles I wrote or was featured in would pop up under my maiden name because I use to be a journalist and an athlete (so stats and whatnot on the latter). Now, well let's just say, I wasn't going through some 1,100 pages to see if my maiden name hit on page 50something so I quit after 6 pages of searching. But on my married name, there was a modest amount. So after giving up my maiden name, which a certain professor of mine told me to NEVER do, now I'm wondering "Am I slowly being erased?!?" Not that I'm not totally head over heels about my husband (which I must say I can't believe that after 5 years I'm still absolutely crazy about him), but it is odd to think that any and all "accomplishments" I had before marriage are well hard to find. Don't take this like I'm measuring self-worth by google's hits on me. That is HARDLY the case. Just an odd thought that popped into my mind. To quote a favorite movie of mine, "Who knows where thoughts come from, they just appear." Now I have an urge to watch that movie today. LOL. Life!